FALLENpheanad dreams

THhhe.

2010-04-02T21:42:00.000-07:00

wanted to go out with sister buy the shades bt haiyaaaaaaa.
ok so want to go out on saturday i have madrasah so cannot go out.

SOMERSET SUNDAY BABY!

mummy bought chocolates:D
mummy goreng my fav banana^^ wooohhoooo .

2010-04-01T02:12:00.000-07:00

looooooooooooooool. who is sleepy??
i ate cinnamon melts just now. woooah. niiice^^
cant wait for brownie melts now....

going to vacuum the house and then sleeep.
when i wake up going to do homework(maybe)
then clean my room sleep again.

hhahahahha . i love linus bynes!

note to god.

2010-03-28T08:26:00.000-07:00

dear god,
im not going to ask you why are you testing me like this.
im not going to ask you why this is happening to me.
but Allah S.W.T , im going to ask you to give me strength
to face the challenge and keep my head held high.
god, please guide me to go through all this. send me
guidiance from above. lead me to the right path.

I have to stay strong, i cant show him that he got me well.
why i keep on failing? why i keep on losing?
why i cant make it to the end? why are others always on top of me?
why cant i get what i want? why cant i be like them who always win?

there are a lot of things runing through mind

Game Plan

2010-03-26T21:38:00.000-07:00

You Dont Know What I Know.
i may not know the reason why but i do know what are you up to. i have my own game plan too baby.
Thank you hafiz for the tips ;D

Big Girls Dont Cry

2010-03-25T23:57:00.000-07:00

Grief-stricken but im strong(:

People come and go. sometimes they comeback. if i have a choice i dont want people to come if i know they will leave. doesnt matter if they will come back in future.

However, i wish that one day i could

say goodbye easily as if it is one of my forte.

you cant have all at once, but you could give it all at once. why must things be the other way round? why cant we have things the way we wanted it to be. why do we have to go through the worst before we could get to the best?

its hard to make our life better when problems just keep coming our way. slowly one by one leave, leaving you alone. isnt it nice to know that someone is there for you all the time although the person could not do anything to help you make the situation better? but when the person leave situation got worst. as long as i know my parents are still here for me, i know imnot going through this alone. thank god for them and i hope He will not take them away from me.
Though there are times when i hate them, when i wish they are not my parents i still love them and i know i couldnt live without them by my side.

i have come into conclusion that i could not trust anyone.

Goodbye, till we meet again.

love,

2010-03-20T23:52:00.000-07:00

lets pray hard that i could get all my things done today(:

2010-03-19T07:47:00.000-07:00

2010-03-19T00:32:00.000-07:00

so tireeeed.

last night movie marathon until 4 am .

once haziq stepped out of the house

sister was like " i want to sleep"

enter my room and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

stupid brother wake me up at 2! i was bloody

tired ad sleep . the first thing i did was

check my eyebag! hahhahahh .

dad want to watch movie. he say he go out to get the

ticket. so i text him to check what time is the show

he said 5. then he ask me to get ready so can buy the ticket.

then he go out for what siaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

then sister question was "i hve tution. engh time?"

thats when i dont have the mood to go out.

fuuuuck all the shit alright .

i wanted to go shopping alone today.

bt cancel because of this and that.

tomorrow i want to go uhh!

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

2010-03-18T21:48:00.000-07:00

I LOVE MY SISTER VERY MUCH
SHE IS HOT
THE BEST SIS EVER.

2010-03-18T12:10:00.001-07:00

supp.
its already 3 am
still awake. :c

2010-03-18T10:56:00.000-07:00

wow! this will be my 100th ppost.
ok ..... hmmm .
BC BC BC BC BC BC BC BC BC BC BC
IS DYING! see you in hell Fucker!

2010-03-18T01:04:00.000-07:00

still waiting.

2010-03-17T21:06:00.000-07:00

2010-03-17T20:56:00.000-07:00

third picture soo..... ermsss.

people like me will have the same thinking ;D

i was so sleepy i woke up at 7 straight away mandi.

i know i was going to be late. so texted babylove.

blablabla. reaok school waste time in the toilet.

heard strange noise. when i heard the first sound i was like

"oook...." the second sound scare me!

apa lagi ? amek bag jalan ahh. babylove was still in the toilet!

hehhehe :D

and ... mr quak super childish!

and random! hahhahahhah .

after school breakfast mcm biasa

all of us want to heeeh. bt tdy idk

why my perut so strong.

ok , goodbye:D
wanna sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

2010-03-17T10:02:00.000-07:00

haiyaaa .
it took me about 3 hours to complete 3 poa questions!
suck right ? i know. i need more practice.
i think the reason i have been sleeping with my sister is that
i feel so lonely? usually i have someone to text me at night.
bt now...

bc is changing now and i hate his change.
most guys have the attitude that they have to impress the
girl at first then when they get the girl already they like
KO . what to do ???

2010-03-17T09:23:00.000-07:00

2010-03-16T21:02:00.000-07:00

look at the mirror. theres nothing to be reflected actually....
hmmmmmmmmm. whats that?

its like illusion picture. if you could see properly

its a zoom in of a pair of eyes. look at THE WHOLE

mirror. the white thing is the eye lense.

and when my sister saw the thing it was

MOVING!

i put two picture so that comparison could be done.

look at the difference.

i switch on the lights during both conversation.

2010-03-16T11:26:00.000-07:00

2010-03-16T11:10:00.000-07:00

2010-03-16T11:01:00.000-07:00

2010-03-16T10:53:00.000-07:00

YOU SUCK, BYE!

2010-03-16T03:48:00.001-07:00

2010-03-16T03:12:00.000-07:00

extention baby. chey. haha .

hello . i have been online-ing 24/7. sucks. kay, tomorrow collecting hw and i have to get it done! thursday have poa class. handsome teacher ^^ im so happy as i jst chatted w eheeem.

holiday very tired. imnot sure why?
i hate typical ! seriously. i dont know why?
talking about typical .. imnot going to shop at

cotton on, hula and co, max and more, forever 21, topshop(see how)
cotton on has become SOOOOO COMMON just like mango basic :C
hula and co not that common but.. i dont know why same goes to max and more.

forever 21 & topshop BECAUSE A LOT O TYPICAL PEOPLE HAVE BEEN GOING THERE TO SHOP!

lastly , ive changed my make up to estee lauder. but its hard for me to say goodbye to mac eyeliner.
but i have to .. soon . i just read one typical girl blog and she said she is using MAC BLUSHER!
damn it!

life updates!

most girls thought that to get over a guy is to get a replacement.
yes, including me. i need a break.
i need to focus more on my education. i have not been doing well lately.
this holiday since eheem have some problems of his own.
and BC always busy im going to spend my time wisely by
STUDY & SPENDING TIME WITH FAMILY(:

BC,so boring ...
everytime " ill text you back. i got stuff to do"
&&&&& he expect me to text him first!
imnt a despo and i have much better things to do.
you dont text me then i wont text you.
if you think that i dont want to talk to you anymore
then thats your problem.
BECAUSE I WONT TEXT YOU FIRST BLOODY DUMBASS.
BC is a hot&cold. ad somebody told me not to put
hopes on him and dont trust him.
i wont put hopes on the guy unless.. i really like the guy.
he is CUTE but that doesnt mean i like him hooor.
ok , i need to mndi and spend time alone in the toilet .
hehheheh .

goodluck to syarul,kama and alfian for takraw trial.
insyaallah, amin(:

YOU SUCK, BYE!

2010-03-15T08:41:00.000-07:00

2010-03-14T20:17:00.000-07:00

i hate to be compared. who are you to compare me?
if youre looking for perfection well ... imnt.
imnt like HER. GO ON, leave. dont ever comeback.
keep on searching.

im confused. you said you want this but then you said
youre not looking foward to this.
you just lost my trust. yes. trust is like a mirror.
you can fix it if its broken but you still could see the crack.

girls are all different, but guys are all the same.

2010-03-11T21:41:00.000-08:00

yesterday was ptc .

got back my report book .
no underline :D

2010-02-09T01:51:00.000-08:00

hahaaha . kalaw kau terasa, BAGUS!

i hate guys who say " later i text you back"
but never.

give me hope abe tak msg. baaaaaaaaaaik !

hahaha ! buuuuuuut . :D

Mixed Up

2009-12-19T06:09:00.001-08:00

How come everything turns out
Leaving me with more doubts
I feel like I´m upside down
And I don´t wanna be here

I go right
Should have gone left :C
And I say things
I should of not said
Look at me in this big mess
I don´t want to be here

Everything I do
Is making me more confused
it used to be easy
All I had to be was me
Now I´m mixed up

Everywhere I go
Is somewhere that I don´t know
I´m hoping that I´m dreaming
Cuz I'm sick of this feeling
I´m mixed up
Somebody help me

Tell me how to fix this
I´d trade my world for one wish
To go back to my other life
and get it right

hold me
tell me
Everything´s gonna
Be okay
Cuz today
It feels like I won´t
Make it to the top now
Don´t know how to get outta this

i hate it when i made the wrong decision.

crying myself to sleep wont help but

atleast i felt better. nobody cares because

nobody asked me why i woke up with swollen eyes.

sigh.

dene love &kak meera ,

thank you so much for being there when i needed you

the most. thank you for listening to my problems

all the time. love you vvv much!

2009-12-10T04:27:00.000-08:00

dont tell me to eat more. watch my diet and stuff.
seriously.
and i dont care if you want to say flat chest or no butt or whatever.

i dont care if in the end i have to eat using a tube or whaaat.

bye.bye.bye.

im tired of making ou happy.

2009-12-10T04:18:00.000-08:00

Im tired of receiving "text you later"
im tired of texting "are you done yet"
im tired of this situation.

those (: was suppose to be ...-_-

2009-11-21T06:27:00.000-08:00

just come back from airport.
went airport with aunty , kak lala , refdee & arfy.
arfy so hot la kan !

in the morning went john little with caca then head to burger
king to have our breakfast cum lunch.

kaay . bye(:

2009-11-12T17:04:00.000-08:00

i had insomnia last night .
so played phone challenge.
5 random words by sister

-donkey -monkey -money -kettle one more word i forget

after playing the game i still cannnot sleep!
& i dont know why i keep on thinking about
__I__ & __D__

to them ,
im sorry for everything.

happy belated birthday.

2009-11-11T19:14:00.000-08:00

airaah`s sugar song make me sad :C

i become emo everytime i hear the song.

kakak jealous i went out with ahtape yesterday.

hahahhahaha !

us : * enter white sand

me : eyy , tkmu uhh . kita masuk dri blakng so kita terkejut kn aisyah.

at : ahh . kk .

me : *stop at yoghurt shop

me : aloooooooooooooooooooong ! fiqa naaaaak !

at : tak halal laaaa. jalan2

us : *reach mccafe

at: OI!

sis : eyy. krg g ane ?

me : :P

us : nak order apa eyy ?

me : mana paling mahal eyyy .

at : shout at me.

me : hahaha. klaah. paling susah nak buat

me : d.choc uhh .

sis hate it when people order double choc. hahahha!

us : walk towards ntuc

me : i want this watch !

at : srh uhh _____ belikan .

me : -_-

me : buy for meeeeeeeeee!

at : NO!

me : yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees!

at : I SAY NO MEANS NO!

then the people behind ask talk about us

at : WHAAAAAT ?WHAT ? WHAT ?

daaaaaaamn paiseey .

enter ntuc

at : jom kita amek bakul mcm datuk2

at : *take basket and put on my head

me : OOOOOOOOOOOOI!

reach vegetable place

at : *take one vegetable

at : ketuk kepala baru tau!

jadi mcm org kt beach road.

me : tak baik seeeeeeey !

reach sushi counter

at : ARIKATO.

me : nak nii !

at : show at the sweet corn *

at : tak masuk akal seyy bende ni!

me : alooooooooooooooooong! nak ni! nak ni!

at : ada duit kaan !

me : tak de laa!

reach counter

at : aunty scan this also .

aunty : cannot laaa .

me : eyy !my wallet !

aunty : this one no barcode

at arcade

at : see la aunty this one cheat my money only .

me : :D

& we spend $5 on basketball . we finished up our money on that

game. hahah !

thanks ahtape (:

please visit me every weekened!

2009-11-10T18:02:00.000-08:00

5 more days and im moving out from here :C
im soooo going to miss mum & dad(:
hopefully parents will come visit me every weekened!
mum didnt give me money today ! thank uhh mum !
hahhaha .

sunday will be the last day i update my blog.
why ? because imnot bringing my computer
& internet connection go there! hahah .

i miss last year! not so much .
but yeah .

2009-11-09T17:27:00.000-08:00

yesterday was great i guess ?
went out around 10 rush to tamp
have breakfast at LJS .
head to lavender to do Ahtape uniform.
the person ask to come back 30 mins later.
sit downn at the foodcourt. eat & drink

makcik : *go inside toilet
makcik : *exit toilet
makcik : *salah toilet la cu ....
daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn funny!
i saw the whole thing .

then head to bugis
B-O-R-E-D
went to iluma .
B-O-R-I-N-G

ahtape and sis book
jeannifer`s body ticket.
THANKS UHH!
ahtape promised to change
the movie if i cannot buy.
thanks ahtape. -_-
mrajok with them . they blanja
coffee bean ! tau pon pujuk .
then buat hal lagi. so i run away from them.

went to mrt station . waited for adnand.

text msg from adnand:
afiqah i meet you at city hall can ? i lazy get off the train.

so went to city hall ...
saw this sweet looking girl
inside the train. i thought
she is not friendly. surprisingly
when i smile at her she smile at me back .
hahhaha .

waited for adnand ...

adnand terlajak ! have to wait for him loonger.
waited .waited.
called mum while waiting .
then adnand arrived.

& i saw clip on his hoodies ! daaaaaaaaaaamn funny!

went to wisma . nothing nice . -_-
walk around lucky plaza.
adnand mati2 nak kfc.
so went to far east . eat for a while.
then meet mum .
SORRY ADNAND!

went subway to eat dinner .
kaaaaaaaaaaaaay . bye !

2009-11-07T06:42:00.000-08:00

i cant wait to move out from here .

"you dont even bother to look at my results"

dad: you never show me ? i dont even know you got it back alr .

me: common sense uhh . i get last day of school.

dad: you say school havent finish ?

me: then i never go school uhh for this week ?

UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURGH !

2009-11-07T05:20:00.000-08:00

thank god i get into 3NA .
i cant believe im secondary 3 next year .
hahaha .

im not sure the what the reason
i have been fighting with my parents
these few days. esp mum .
i want them to treat all their
children FAIRLY.
F-A-I-R-L-Y !
are they even trying ?
its not fair that sister and brother get
new room new stuff blashits & all.
& theres nothing new i get .
sister got the type of room i want . fuck off.
mum have been saying that we need to save money
as we are doing renovation. hello mother .
we save money then you spend . sedaaaaaap!
buy your jeans all . stop saying ive change . ok ?
im just going to ignore whatever you said .

scene 1

me:i want to buy dress
mum:ignore
me:yeah laa. only adib&aisyah

scene 2

me: i want new bed& table.
mum: ignore

scene 3

me: i want starbucks
mum:ignore
me:seeeeee . everytime i talk you ignore .
me:*walk down the stairs
mum:whaat?
me:urgh. forget it .
dad: you want to buy or not ?
me: forget it laaa. just walk .
dad: want to buy for you dont want
me:*walk off and look for the car

scene 4

me:i want buy clothes
mum:ignore
me: * roll eyes
dad:see you ignore her again .
dad:what clothes you want ?
me: ignore

seee what i mean

" afiqah , you just break up is it ? why since exam you everytime sulk "
-dad

to dad :

O-M-G . you know im like this since exam so its OBVIOUS !
there something got to do with exam. whatever................!

2009-11-02T06:16:00.000-08:00

i have no intention to make
my dad look so bad on my previous post
i just want to let go everything.
i sick of crying myself to sleep.
ot has been 4 days straight.

share it with someone?

i TRIED sharing with someone who i trust
but the person dont seems to care because
her life is so opposite of mine
so i know she wont know how i feel.

Thanks kak zainab(:

2009-11-02T05:14:00.000-08:00

I have been crying these few days .
want to call me cry baby ? sure ago ahead.
but think before you call me one.
whats the reason i cry ? for fun ?
seek attention ? theres reason why i have
been crying these few days.
dont blame pms. dont say that i dont know how to
control my emotions. dont say that im pampered.

i was crying when dad entered my room
he asked me to talk to him .
in my heart " i have been crying for four
days straight and now
then you want to talk to me ? "

blaaablaaa blaaa.....

"youre making your life miserable this way"
that is what my dad said.

to dad :

miserable ? my life is full of misery dad .
let me repeat FULL. i dont see the point
of me having a good time of life because i
know i will end up crying. dad , remember
the last time we talked heart to heart ?
you promised me that i will get freedom ?
you promised me that you would understand
me better ? where is that promise ?
are you still holding on to your words ?
freedom ? your giving me unreasonable curfew.
since sister is busy working i cant go out
because i have to take care of my brother.
stop saying you understand me when you really dont.
you really dont dad. you dont know how i suffer.
you dont know why i suffer. stop saying you
are proud of me when you really dont. how
can you be proud of me when you have not seen my
report book ? & dont say you have seen my report book .
you said that you will try to be fair .
you said that you will try to be a type of father that
i want. i dont want you to compare me with other people.
i dont want you to expect me to be the best because
all i can do is do my best . i need your support & motivation
dad. reward. mum bought kak long stuff. but neither mum nor you
get me something as a reward. nothing much i want to ask from
you dad. all i asked is you to hold on to your words.
"im so proud of you" that is just a clishe. i know .

thank you kak meera.
i really hope you understand me
& know how i feel . i love you
vv much !

to people who call me a cry baby /
who ask me to stop crying :
WHATEVER

2009-11-01T19:57:00.000-08:00

Im not in the mood to laugh or do anything
that can make me happy. seriously.
i just want to cry! im afraid that if i laugh
a lot then im not able to laugh/smile on thursday!
a maths , poa , d&t ? hmmm .
Not d&t please .

bake muffin this morning. daaaamn early.
i got nothing better to do .

going to singapore idol again this week. i dont have any green top !

i get irritated if people text me want to prank.
get a life. if you think i want to go on with
the flow . you thought wrong. if you think im
interested ? sorry hunny, im not interested at all.

yesterday went to chalet for Irfan`s birthday.
The playroom daamn fun . haha .
ala & i cuci mata uhh apa lagi .

then somebody ask we all to go back to the chalet.

Ahmad: mana sezairi ? mana? mana ?
muaz: oh , dia cakp klw nk jumpa kene amek kan air.
ahmad: okok .
agil: siapa lagi nak air ?
me: hahahha ! beyloo !

ahmad : hug sezairi*
sezairi : macam da kenal lama .
ahmad: point to himself*
ni beli dia(sezairi) kecik kan ?
sezairi : banyak bobal uhh dia nie.

DAAAAAAAMN FUNNY .AHMAD so cute .

gtg noow . i want to sleeeeeeeep!

xoxo

I MISS MY CLASSMATES!

2009-10-30T20:10:00.000-07:00

I MISS MY CLASSMATES!

I MISS THE TIME WHEN WE TEASE EACH OTHER!
I MISS THE TIME WHEN WE DISTURB THE TEACHERS!
I MISS THE TIME WHEN WE DO STUPID THINGS TOGETHER!
I MISS THE TIME WHEN WE PLAY GAMES TOGETHER!
I MISS THE TIME WHEN WE JUST KEEP QUIET WHEN THERE IS A FIGHT!
I MISS THE TIME WHEN WE DO THE CLASS DECO!
I MISS THE TIME WHEN WE IN THE BUS SINGING TOGETHER!
I MISS THE TIME WHEN WE GREET MR ANG "GOODBYE"
I MISS THE TIME WHEN WE CHEER&JEER FOR EACH OTHER
I MISS THE TIME WHEN WE COOK TOGETHER
I MISS THE TIME WHEN WE DO OUR ARTEFACT TOGETHER
I MISS THE TIME WHEN WE CHANGE OUR PLACE SECRETLY
I MISS THE TIME WHEN WE SHOUT "SUMMER TIME"
I MISS THE TIME WHEN WE SAY "CAN I SEE THE CHAIRMAN PLEASE"
I MISS THE TIME WHEN THEY SHOUTS THE P WORD
I MISS THE TIME WHEN THEY DISTURB ME "SIEW MAI"
I MISS THE TIME WHEN THEY TAKE MY WALLET AND HIDE IT .
I MISS THE TIME WHEN THEY TAKE MY BEAR
I MISS THE TIME WHEN I DISTURB JAZREEL "BESTFRIED"
I MISS THE TIME DISTURBING SAMSON "KC"
I MISS THE TIME DISTURBING HAQIIM "RM"
I MISS THE TIME DISTURBING FARIZWAN "GS"
I MISS THE TIME DISTURBING HAKIM "HK"
I MISS THE TIME DISTURBING NAEEM "PB"
I MISS THE TIME DISTURBING AKMAL "SH"
I MISS THE TIME WHEN SAMSON & I GO TO THE OFFICE CHANGE
TABLE THEN WASTE TIME AT THE DETENTION AREA.

I MISS EVERY SINGLE THING ABOUT 2NC!
I MISS EACH AND EVERYONE VV MUCH (EXCEPT FOR THE CLIQUE I HATE)

I REGRET FOR FORGETTING YESTERDAY WAS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL .
THE DAY WE ARE SEPERATED. JAZREEL , MAKE A CLASS OUTING !
EVERYONE PLEASE JOIN. CHUN KWUAN HURRY UP MAKE THE VIDEO.

Revenge .

2009-10-30T19:55:00.001-07:00

cried myself to sleep again .
i dont know why im so moody
these few days and im leeting
my emotionals gettng over me.
& sucks when i have to cry
everytime im angry .
theres something bothering me.
maybe because of my parents ?
i dont know. maybe going out alone
to release stress. do something
to calm me down. get myself
lost and try to find my way back home
i dont know anything. dont worry .
i wont do stupid things.
i just want to know the reason im like this.
im sick of crying. im sick of keeping quiet.
im sick of avoiding my parents.
im sick of this situation .

2009-10-30T05:19:00.000-07:00

1. Are you single or attached?
- single(:

2.Do you have a person you like?
- maybe ? nope. idk ? maybe no.

3.What is the name of the person that you're in love with?
- haha. im not interested.

4. If the person you love and your mum dropped into the sea,who will you save?
- mum?

5.Have you ever hugged someone before?
- haha.yeah ?

6. Do you love your parents?
- HMMMMMMMM

7.Will you hug the one you love?
- depends.

8.Are you willing to do anything for your boyfriend/girlfriend?
- HELL NO!

9Are you jealous now?
- ofcz! im jealous that my friend`s parent care about their result ):

10.Who is the last person that messaged you?
-cannot tell :P

11.Who is your clique?
- airaah & nisha ?

12.Do you want babies in future?
- hmmmm ...

13.Do you prefer Macdonald,KFC,Long John Sliver,Burger King or coffee shop?
- BURGER KING !

Do you sniff glue?
- no.

15.Do you smoke?
- no, its bad

16 If your boyfriend is a 2-timer,what will you do?
- break. i dont want to be stupid crying over a guy again.

17. Which CCA are you in now?
-NCDCC

18.If you're rich, what'll you do?
- Enjoy life to the fullest :D

19.If the one you're in love with, held your hand, what'll you do?
- "yes you can hold my hands if you want too cz i want to hold yours too"

20. If the one you love, reject you, what'll you do?
- in the first place.... i wont tell the person i love him la?

21.What is your favourite cartoon character/s?
- dora,strawberry shortcake.

22.Friendship or Love?
- love ? as in BGR or family ?

23.Cookie monster or Elmo?
- none of the above

24.Do you use laptop or computer?
- computer.

25 Do you like lollipop?
- not really.

26.Do you have a diary?
-yeaah .

27.There's an admirer of yours and he won't die heart, what'll you do?
- huuuuuuuuuuuh ?

28.If you quarrel with your boyfriend/girlfriend and he/she wants to break, what'll you do?
- break looor ? move on. dont want to be stupid crying over a guy again!

29. Are you blur?
- can say ...

30.If you can have your hair dyed, what colour do you want it to be?
- REDISH BROWN!

31)Who is the last person you chatted in your MSN?
- Hafiz

32)How many boys/girls have you beaten before?
- kay , ill start counting

33)If your boyfriend/girlfriend don't love you anymore, what'll you do?
- B-R-E-A-K

34. What school are you in?
-GVSS

2009-10-30T04:50:00.000-07:00

MY PARENTS DONT CARE ABOUT MY REPORT BOOK!
MY PARENTS DONT CARE ABOUT MY RESULTS!
MY PARENTS DONT CARE ABOUT WHAT I WANT!
MY PARENTS DONT CARE ABOUT MY NEEDS!

IM SULKING WITH MY PARENTS !

IM NOT TALKING TO THEN UNTIL THEY KNOW
WHY IM LIKE THIS !

I WANT MY PARENTS TO FIGURE OUT THEMSELVE !

I WANT MY PARENT TO KNOW THE REASON IM
IGNORING THEM !

I WANT MY PARENT TO KNOW THE REASON I
DONT WANT TO EAT WITH THEM!

I WANT MY PARENT TO KNOW I RATHER
STAY IN MY ROOM THAN WATCHING TV!

I WANT MY PARENT TO KNOW WHERE THEY
HAVE GONE WRONG!

I WANT MY PARENT TO KNOW THAT I WANT
THEM TO CARE!

I WANT MY PARENT TO KNOW THAT IM SICK
OF MAKING THE FIRST MOVE!

I WANT MY PARENT TO KNOW THAT IM SICK
OF RELEASING MY ANGER BY CRYING!

I WANT MY PARENT TO KNOW THAT
IT REALLY HURT ME !

"oh , god "

2009-10-28T23:37:00.000-07:00

Cant`t wait for 5th November.
going to get my results.
hoping that i can go 3NA. and
airaah would be the same class
as me :D please god ...

i don't want to go 3b/3c
the reason is im not interested.
kaaaaaaaaaaaaaay ,
tomorrow is friday!
going to get report book.

kay , im not in the mood now.

2009-10-27T11:16:00.000-07:00

kaay , its 2 am .
chatting with friends . DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN FUNNY!
why ? hahhahaa . keep on typing anyhow .
dont know if they understand what im trying to say.
kaay , 3 more hours !

2009-10-27T06:45:00.000-07:00

i wish i could do something about it.
but i just cant. it just make me feels even
irritated. i dont know ? uuuurgh !
i need CAAAAAAAAASH !

2009-10-27T06:36:00.000-07:00

im not sure why but i get
easily irritated. and all i want to
do is just shut the person mouth!
kick his or her ass !

e.g

me: hello, you make my bed alr?(nicely)
sis: no im very tired(nicely)
me: WHY YOU NEVER CLEAN! I DONT CARE, DO IT NOW!

see what i mean ?
uuuuuuuurgh !
im angry now ! i dont know why!
and im typing so hard !
uuuuuuuuurghs !
i hate it when i get this feeling!
is it pms ?
nooooo! dont blame pms!

2009-10-27T06:06:00.000-07:00

i was expecting to get top 3 in class .
but i get top 5 :C
i was expecting to get top 10 in level ranking
but i get top 20 :(

yeah. its predictable what parents going to say
when i tell them about my position and stuff

dad " thats good"
mum "congrats"

pffft . please mum & dad .
thats not what i want to hear from you guys.

2009-10-23T20:54:00.000-07:00

kaaaaaaaaay ,

im sooo tired today. woke up 6+ just to go to the loo.
i didnt meet syaffiq today because im tired &
im gg manicure later . I WANT TO GO SHOPPING!

kay. bye(:

2009-10-23T06:36:00.000-07:00

HELLLLO :D
like finally i finish packing my books.
i throw some of my soft toys .
there is no way im going to throw my
daughter away just like that.
i abondon her this few days though.
im suppose to sleep with her everynight!
ok whatever skip.
i wanted to pack my clothes. but i think
its still early.maybe next week .

its hard for me to accept the fact
that i fail my history.
maybe i think about it too much ?
but im afraid that i couldnt go
Amaths/POA .

suddenly i miss ____ ____
whatever!WHATEVER!

nisha is going to admiltary (how to spell?)
going to spend time with her & airaah these few days.

Kak arini just left .
she & kakak so called babysit
me and adib since parent not back yet
dont know whats their reason.
she showed me videos OMGG DAMN COOL!
maybe going to dye my hair at the shop
kak arini did her hair last year.

ouhkhey , buhbye (:

2009-10-23T02:50:00.000-07:00

i hate history.
i know i promised myself that i would not say
"if only i spend more time studying on ______ "
theres nothing i could do now.
my ONE & ONLY FIRST & LAST line for this yaer
is history. i fail BADLY! 38/100 38!38!38!
and when combine marks with other test i get 45!
still fail! i was expecting to get atleast 50!
my other subject i get ATLEAST 50+. booo !
HATE HISTORY .

BOO !

2009-10-19T07:21:00.001-07:00

kaaay . im moody now.
was disappointed with Lan.
just receive a text msg from him.
if i were to reply

"why you bother? you busted me what?
go save your battery so not flat
then you no need to hang up on other people"

Lan just called .
whatever you want to say i dont care.
dont try to settle this when im still mad at you.
settle this next time or whanever. im angry because when i called you asking for direction you just hang up not because you didnt send me to the bus stop. if your battery is really flat you can call me using your friends phone. if you really care about me you would do that! no point texting , calling or ask aisyah to tell me anything i dont care. give me time to calm down.
whatever! bye.

WHERE MY PARTY PEOPLE AT?

2009-10-19T04:37:00.000-07:00

had a hard time sleeping last night .

all i hope for was being able to wake up 7:30 the next morning.

selawat.selawat alhamdulillah i woke up around 7.
wanted to sleep back but have to get ready!
took my shower had a hard time deciding on what to wear.
just use my bootcut jeans & tanktop.
leave the house around 8 reach ciktok house before 9.

went out around 9.

went to central Efa bought 6 red bull.

took bus 12 to Adhe`s house. the guys cooked breakfast .
eateat then drink red bull. hahah. luckily theres orange juice!
played wii . i suck ! haha . played ps3 rap anyhooow. haha .
Efa & i bake cookies . mine nicer :P hahaha !
i stay in the kitchen to look after my cookies. me,muaz,adhe,brandon
add marshmallow we even put FERRERO ROCHER!
"we bake it so we eat it"
put in the oven for a while then we eat ir first then pass to the others.
dunk my cookies in milk. yuuuuum,yuuuuum.

then meet lan at tamp. (regret liao)

went home . blaaaa. blaaaa .

BOOOORED !

2009-10-18T07:31:00.001-07:00

conversation with parent DAMN FUNNY !
mum : mak kau punyi puki
me:bukaan laaa. puki mak kau!
me&kakak :apa ni main puki mak aku?
dad: ahh . bapa kau punyi laki. mak kau tak cukup
me:aaah diam la . puki mak kau & bapak kau!

2009-10-18T06:44:00.000-07:00

kaay. im reallly bored.
went to cik tok house around 4
around 6 "visiting hours" so went down
eat sweet corn . muaz & muazzin had a so called
corn fight. should take a video of it!

2009-10-17T23:01:00.000-07:00

went to eat turky food at arab st on friday.

i love the cheese :D

for dessert ordered chocolate something .

although its bitter chocolate its nice.

im really hungry now. no food & nobody at home .

suck.suck.

i was playing the keyboard when i heard noise

coming from the kitchen .

before i enter the kitchen i saw a black cat HANGING on my bird

cage. scaaaary!

run to parent toilet called dad

me: ada kucing kat burung!

dad: halau la?

me:taaak naak . takut .

dad: nanti dia makan burung

me: ahh . bye.bye .

*pray to god

look at the window no more cat.

phew!

Come & Go

2009-10-17T07:41:00.001-07:00

mum wake me up 9 in the morning . wth ?
kaay , kaay .
yesterday keep on laughing . today moody
at night keep on laughing. waliao! i want cry!

went to meet Julian Sim this morn then went to hospital . ciktok told me that she will be discharge today. alhamdullilah . sit at the kopitiam ALONE loner la kirekan.
then head to katong mall . not interested. & i want to buy this samsung ____ tv ! bt price $6500++
waliao eyyy ! bought durian puff . not as nice as goodwood hotel. haha . went to nenek house. talk2 to granny then sleep. sister wake me up arnd 7 .
teach nurul for a while then went to ciktok house.

at granny house receive msg from _____ _____
kakak : eyy ! msg dari _____ _____
me : bedek uhh . step afiqah heran jerh .
kakak : btl ...

kaay. kaaay.
wanna rest now .

can you please give me a comfirmation?

2009-10-16T01:02:00.000-07:00

__R__ ,
i know that you dont trust me .
i know that you know im lying.
but please ? stop controlling me.
youre not my parent!
you dont have the right to stop
me from doing whatever i want!
URRRGH!

_____A__
wow. 13 july 2008.
can we stop what we have been doing ?
& stop being so cruel!

_______I___
"OFF ON OFF ON"
i hate it .

__A______
ouhkhey, goodbye :D

HUNGRY!

2009-10-16T00:50:00.001-07:00

woke up around 6 today .
i thought theres school! haha.
sleep back woke up around 9!
tired liao! i was hungry , damn hungry.
check my wallet, bath and get ready
to buy food. cannot find house key -_-
called ma
me: i dont have key!
ma: go duplicate since you lost it.
me:why never give me key ? then im alone at home dont have key ? if have fire or what how ?!
ma:come out from the window laa .
me:bye la. bye.

HEEEEART PAIN!

solat zohor then eat. eat my Brunch.

i will not forget ;D

2009-10-15T04:59:00.001-07:00

dont pretend like nothing had happened. although it happened two years ago i still remember what you did & say.

"asal tiba2 kau datang balik nak buat baik ? semenjak bila kau kesa pasal aku semua ? tak perlu eyy angkat bodek , puji2 , tanya pasal khabar aku semua! macam kau peduli! kalaw ye pon aku tak heran! asal kau nak ajak aku keluar semua ? WITH YOU I RATHER NOT! kalaw kau nak berkawan balik dengan aku minta maaf la ? kalaw perkara kecik mungkin aku dapat maafkan tapi ni tidak! ke kau nak KAWAN BAIK kau minta maaf untuk kau ? stop it eyy perangai. "

SHUT UP!

2009-10-15T00:17:00.001-07:00

I MISS DENE VVVVVVV MUCH!
hahha.

like finally exams are over.
hopefully i get in 3NA . insyaallah,amin.
visiting grandmother this saturday.:D
i want to visit her tomorrow but sister is
working :C

i need to start packing my stuff. i cant wait to stay with granny. hopefully aunty & family dont mind me staying there.